My name is Chris Pascarella. I am married to Heather, and together we are raising Lazarus.
We lost our first baby in January 2013. We named the baby Lazarus, echoing the story in the Gospel of John where Jesus raises His friend, Lazarus, from the dead. Jesus declared Himself the “resurrection and the life.” That is my hope, for myself, for my wife, and for my baby: that Jesus is the resurrection and the life.
We are thankful that God was gracious to us and gave us another gift of life: our son Roman (He will be an avid Giants fan one day!) and our daughter, Ruthanne. Our experiences with Laz and our living kids have brought to life the verse from Job: “The Lord gives and the Lord takes away; blessed be the name of the Lord.”
I will use this blog to probably write mostly about Jesus. But I also like the NY Giants, coffee, and watching TV. So I might write about those things too.
I am one of the pastors at Lincroft Bible Church in Lincroft, NJ. I grew up in NJ but lived previously in Kentucky while attending seminary at Southern Seminary, where I earned an M.Div and a D.Min. I did my undergrad at Liberty University in Lynchburg, VA.
Hello, I’m glad to have come across your blog on a Google search. 9 months ago I lost my baby at 3 weeks. And I have been having all manner of dreams since and that’s how I found your article. I read your about page and found out that you have had a similar experience but you have been blessed with more children. I have been stuck in grief and it has affected every area of my life. I don’t know how to move on. I keep praying but everything feels the same. I will like to be blessed with more children but that hasn’t happened for me yet and I feel like that worsens the grief. I live my life from a place of fear. Can you please share with me how you and your wife moved forward after Lazarus left? Thank you.
We cried alot. And then we prayed a lot. We had a really good church community around us. So leaning into friendships at this time is important. We struggled to conceive for a while, so we also pursued adoption. Ironically, the day after we went to an adoption meeting, my wife found out she was pregnant again.